||Decided at a very young age I wanted to become a nun. After approximately a year in a half, I came to the conclusion it really was not my decision, it was my nature of wanting to please those I loved and my grandmother was at the top of that love list. After my approaching the "mother superior",with my decision to leave, Mother Gerard, was wiser and played the Catholic guilt trip. Of course I fell for it. Then after three months of rebellion, on my part, Mother Gerard came to me in agreement that I no longer had the "calling" we were both happy with that conclusion.
Found myself raising three children, after two, not one but two trips into widowhood, myself 36,my daughter 16 my son 13 and I was eight months pregnant with my second husbands daughter, when I became single again.
My children are on their own now, and I am pretty much free to find out who I am.