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Marilyn Wattman-Feldman
Name Marilyn Wattman-Feldman
Location Oviedo, FL
Joined 222 days ago
Hobbies Zumba, Aqua Fitness, Basic Spinning, writing, cooking, traveling, gardening, spending time with family
About Me Born in Philadelphia, PA I moved my family to Central Florida in 1988. Graduated from Temple University with a degree in Journalism in 1977. Worked in PR/Special Event planning and was the editor of many different publications, and a freelance writer as well. Enjoy life! Laughter!
Marilyn Wattman-Feldman
Shutterfly Helps a Family in Need
222 days ago

I'm a big believer in the power of healing and humor. Watching your show (or simply seeing your beautiful smile) not only brightens my day, but serves as a reminder to me that laughter is powerful. It can help heal an individual both mentally and physically.

Ellen, I need to keep laughing. I am only 61 years old but already have many major health issues. I am dealing with met breast cancer, diabetes, asthma, osteoarthritis, pulmonary hypertension, high cholesterol, HBP, etc. My medications are numerous. I am alive because of maintenance treatment I receive at MD Anderson Cancer Center Orlando. (Soon to be a different name.) Over the course of approximately 12 years I have had a lumpectomy, Sentinel Node surgery, a lungectomy (where I lost the upper lobe of my left lung), a broken right femur, a broken left femur ... fortunately, I never stopped laughing even in the midst of all that happened. Yes! I did go through a time of major depression -- I was at the bottom of a deep, dark place -- in chains, and unable to reach the surface. Getting there took time and it was scary. There were plenty of "pity parties." I continued to "smile" and I did my best to remain positive.

I was always thin -- but I gained so much weight that at one point I reached 186 pounds. In one year, I lost 50 of those pounds. Today, I weigh in at 114. (Give or take a few pounds.) Being diagnosed with type 2 diabetes scared me to death -- at least, it scared off all those pounds. I exercised reguarly at the Y and I ate in moderation. Today, I do not take any medication for diabetes. It is the one major health problem over which I have some control at this time. And I intend to do so for as long as possible.

I lost my ability to write during those dark days of depression. That, however, is in the past. Writing is my passion and it was my career. I hold a degree in journalism from Temple University and I was proud to work in public relations and as a writer / editor for many years. My last job was with the Disney Reservation Center in Orlando where I worked in Guest Services. Cancer --- destroyed not only my body but my ability to remain employed. I am now on disability. Trying to live on what I earn each month is, at best, difficult.

I have written a book titled: High Maintenance ..Surviving Cancer at All Costs. It took me three years to write and now I have been seeking a publisher for almost a year. I had no idea how difficut this process would be; however, I refuse to give up. My book chronicles 12 years (from Dec. 2000 to early 2013. It offers a glimpse into my cancer journey which obviously continues for the rest of my life. (Or as I prefer to say -- until the cure is found.) I've been told readers will "enjoy" the humor I share in addition to the "roller coaster - merry go round" I lived on 24/7.
I have experienced pain that not only reached 10 (on the standard pain scale of 1-10) I have dealt with pain that reached 100. I have had to live with both mental and physical pain .. and I still do. (Although it is much better now. Thank goodness)

Ellen, I would welcome your "intervention" so to speak. Would you be willing to read my manuscript? And, if possible, help me find a publisher? I don't want to continue living month to month, with 2014 starting with a net worth of about $8.00 in my checking account. I am talented enought that I truly believe my book could be a best seller. This project could help me and my family.

Imagine this: I could finally afford to buy a car of my own. (I do not have a car at all right now.) I could get my own place to live. (I currently live with my brothers, both of whom are disabled. I help with expenses here, but would prefer my own home.) My marriage of over 36 years ended in October 2012. This is still a big issue for me in many personal ways. It ended for some strange reasons, too. (i.e.: financial) My life, I believe could change if I finally had a different income source other than just SSD. I never imagined being in this situation at this point in my life. I often cry at night, thinking I'm a failure.

If you are interested in reading my book, I would be happy to forward the copy to you. Of course, I would need an email address that was secure since I obviously want to protect my work. It would be a real honor to have you read "High Maintenance" and perhaps, even write an introduction to the book.

I live by this mantra: Everyday in every way I am getting better and stronger. Nothing is going to stop me from laughing and from enjoying life to the fullest even if I have to remain "unhappy" with many of the cir***stances of my life. I am so happy to be alive -- getting up each morning is a gift.