||There is a lot I'd like to say, but ever since March of this year I have been living with my mom. Since I lost my companion to cancer back in June of 2011, and as much as I tried to hold on; circumstances forced me to have to sell everything, give up the home we loved so much, and move into an apartment with my mom. I found myself lost in this city. I found myself so lost without Bob. My mom has done so much for me and without her I would be out on the street because these days it is so very hard to find a place of my own. Being on disability does not afford me any luxuries and I have learned how to live with the basics. I don't get to do anything for myself anymore. I used to go to the spa once a month, I was very active, and today for the first time in a very long time, I went to the "Y". It felt so good. I plan on going as often as I can but I have a lot of work to do since I have not been active in so long. My mom deserves so much. I am feeling sad right now because Christmas is coming and I can't afford to get her what she truly deserves. It breaks my heart because for so many years she has done so much for everyone, including my other sisters as well as her friends, that I just don't know where to turn in order to make her Christmas this year more than she would expect.
Anyway, I have my two cats; Solaris, who is a Norwegian Forest Cat (7 years old) and Rhianon, who is a domestic tiger cat (1 year and five months old) that keep me on my toes for sure. But, they are my loves and keep me entertained as well.
Although I have met people in this area, the ones that I did feel I connected with and got together with just seemed to disappear off the face of the earth after a month or so. So, going to the "Y" now, I am hoping to meet others and those who I can connect with and not feel so alone all the time. It's no fun doing things by yourself...LOL
I watch Ellen all the time and my mom started watching with me a few months ago. When she is home at this time she always reminds me "Ellen is coming on soon". She loves her show!!!!!
So, without much else to say right now...that's where I am at right now in my life. If anything changes then I will change this section "when" it happens. :)