||widowed for the 2nd time, extremely alone,57 and i've got a dog and cat, hard to feed, i've had 3 back surgeries and fixing to get the shocker stimulator in my back to help ease the pain, since i'm the only one trying to help me then i've got to have this procedure so i can take care of myself. i used to be so clean about everything in myb life now it's a struggle to even wash dishes. burdens are taking over my life, yet i still fight to live. i used to have to fight just to be known. now i just want to stay at home and always pray that this 50 year old trailer will hang on a lot longer. i strive to stay alive. i helped so many, yet they can't even pickup the phone to talk.i wonder what has happened in my life that it keeps me fighting everyday, ok enough of me happy holidays everyone and especially those that are like me FORGOTTEN.