||I am a 53 yo who suffers with bipolar,manic depression and anxiety. I struggle daily to survive and I'm really tired. I am single and give all my time to my twin grandbabies who I watch. They are my reason for getting up everyday. I wish I had some reason to believe that I matter in a world where everyone is about themselves and don't see how hard my life is and to be all alone with no one to help even if a little. I have no future plan, just day by day and each day just gets harder and harder. I should be living life to it's fullest and I don't. Haven't dated in a year, and i'm lonely but tired of being let down. I am such a good person and love to see others happy and always helping others. I believe in God and concider myself to be a christian. I like me as a person just not my life or my lack of knowing how to make my life better and more care free. I would love to find a good man one day that can make my worries and loneliness fade away. I would make someone a good soulmate if life wasn't dragging me down! I have a daughter 37 a son 34 and 4 grandsons and I love them all to much to be a burden to them ever. I want to look at life with hopes and dreams and believe they do come true. I just don't know how to!!