||This has been the hardest time of my life, as I'm sure for many dealing with so much economically and in my personal life,I use to be so patient and extend myself I'm just so tired , I no longer have the time or energy for forced interactions unessesary conversations and meaningless friendships or the tolerance level for stupidity, and I've had a hard lesson and road to now learning and clearly see that not all love is good and all obedience holy, complete change is needed , some sunsets ,some kindness to be found in this world ,after many delusions and pain, many of the health issues have effected my nervousness system and it's even difficult for me to write,literally like a sentence, my mom has said to me some thing good is around the corner , I'm turning a lot of them but I'm so very tired ,and the time in my life I have, I just want peace ,but I keep running into demanding energy ldraining people who have to basically be begged to just go away, so I can have some peace, I've just given so much I have nothing left, my batteries are dead, I love watching ellen and getting re energized with smiling dancing and laughter , it makes me see there are still nice kind people in the world, ,With my work I have sacrificed all my holidays personal life bent over backwards for people who never truly understood these life sacrifices or ever kept there own word regarding promises , disappointed and heartbroken when I just lve people too much,, get this girl to rum cake and a beach I need water and serenity ) and principle employer with a gazillions homes but only is there part time lol ) back up plan just to move any place I can find balance in my life so I can have a life,,,,,,,,,,,,h
Domestic queen , I am house manager as someone said (" ONE. TIRED BUTLER ") lol caretaker housekeeper, Cinderella still waiting for the ball, ,,,??. started culinary school but could not afford to finish its so expensive did you know financial aid you must go to school full time wich is impossible with other responsibilities even when you are young you so etimes ahve to work to pay for your living expenses in these programs , I wish they would change this more moms would go to school,I'm not a mom but u get what I'm saying ,give loans to student who go part time,?
Parents family all far away in az haven't seen them for a long time, very sad BUT not when I dance in the morning when I watch ellen ...