||This has been the hardest time of my life, as I'm sure for many dealing with so much economically and in my personal life,I use to be so patient and extend myself I'm just so tired , I no longer have the time or energy for forced interactions unessesary conversations and meaningless friendships or the tolerance level for stupidity, and I've had a hard lesson and road to now learning and clearly see that not all love is good and all obedience holy, complete change is needed , some sunsets ,some kindness to be found in this world ,after many delusions and pain, many of the health issues have effected my nervousness system and it's even difficult for me to write,literally like a sentence, my mom has said to me some thing good is around the corner , I'm turning a lot of them but I'm so very tired ,and the time in my life I have, I just want peace ,but I keep running into demanding energy ldraining people who have to basically be begged to just go away so I can have some peace, I've just given so much I have nothing left, my batteries are dead, I never say a word about what I've been through or what I'm going through,my parents are elderly but try to bring me some comfort and help,they don't have much , but they have a home they paid hardly anything for in az they said I can stay in, I just can't handle much currently ,or do what I've been doing unless its for nice appreciative people ,I've had too many horrible situations where I've been taken advantage of and I've cleaned way to many toilets and scrubbed way to many floors to. Handle one more assumption or rude person who views what I do as a career as a demeaning person or below them, I have sacrificed all my holidays personal life bent over backwards for peopel who never keep th ere word , most all being able to afford to try, t's just very tiring to continue to be undervalued and Im physically sick,I'm going to try to start over in Phoenix , ( but really get this girl to the beach I need water and serenity ) a principle with a gazillions homes but only is there part time lol ) back up plan just to move any place I can find balance in my life so I can have a life,,,,,,,,,,,,hot lol I can't afford paint its small junker house , i should be great full ,but I'm not sure the electrical wiring is even safe,where the heck to start , haven't moved in was left a mess by last tenants , what how where completely ready to cry overwhelmed. ,.a move accross the country a new life and a scary house ,,, . Just trying to save enough to get there , I'm going from being spicy to just very mild ,,,,that the break down on life ,
Domestic queen , I am house manage caretaker housekeeper, Cinderella still waiting for the ball, ,,,??. shop at goodwill, have zero savings , work way to hard for nothing , started culinary school but could not afford to finish its so expensive ,went through a big bad marriage ,"" where are all the puppies, lol ,, to walk a nd feel better , forget about all the problems when th ey wag there little tails, very healing when I have the chance to get the puppy love , I love animals ,I was vegetarian for 6 years , miss my family live to far away haven't seen them for a long time"Phoenix will be closer,.driving across the country to a new life no job as soon as I have enough money saved ,and a run down home,the person who every bathroom everything is a complete mess. Needs new doors toilets fridge , yikes I'm depressed ,,,,but not when I dance in the morning when I watch ellen ...